Dear Beacon Lights Readers,
Today I received my Beacon Lights. I have read it through from cover to cover, and read all the various articles. I intend to reread them so that I will get the full value of them. I am so anxious to read all it contains that 1 don’t take time to read one article slowly, but at first read all, just to get the main thought of each writer.
I was so glad with Beacon Lights today that it seems as though I must write how helpful it is to me to carry on the good fight of faith.
Sometimes I feel all alone in the world, but when I read articles of fellow members of the church it gives me courage to go on. At times I become weary of all the things we must face and fight in order to walk uprightly. My heart rebels and I think as Rev. Hanko wrote. “Why jealously choke my emotions, why isolate myself from others and make myself the scorn of everyone? Why not be carefree, go along with the crowds and enjoy myself to the full. Why serve God for nothing?” Sometimes it looks to me as though my religion is vain. Nothing is satisfactory. Friends disappoint me. I look at life and so many things cause me to become bewildered and my faith is shaken. But how thankful I am that it is merely shaken and that it still lives! I am positive of that because 1 know the new life is within me, and I have faith, for I believe He is Lord of lords and King of kings. He will cause all things to work together for good to those who love Him.
(I left off writing there). Now it is two days later. My thoughts have dwelt on many things since then. I hesitate to send this up, but I think I will anyway. It will probably be of help to me and others to write my thoughts and my moods to Beacon Lights.
A verse I read this noon encourages me to write. James 5:16, “Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.” We all have faults,—I would rather use this expression—we all have that which we must fight, the old man within us. I often want to give in, for at those times I think, what is the use. So it seems! It is very wicked to think thus: therefore we should fight that feeling every time it comes up in our hearts, for it is rebellion against the Almighty God. He sends His covenant young man to war, and not only a war against men and weapons, but against temptations: and makes it hard for them to fight the good fight of faith. If we would see the surroundings they are in we would say it is impossible for them to keep the faith and walk uprightly. But we know all things are possible with God.
At home here in the churches there is a war going on and we wonder sometimes what the outcome will be. Families are broken up because of doctrinal differences. Fathers, mothers, sisters, brothers and cousins are separated from worshipping in the same denomination. When we work we must fight unions and Sunday work. Where is the peace of today? What joy has the youth of today?
Here I am again. Looks as if I’ll never finish this letter or whatever it is. Let’s call it an airing of my thoughts.
Since the last time I wrote, a lot has happened to my outlook on life. How changeable we people are! One day we are very near to God and the next we cannot take hold on Him.
I feel so secure today. Rev. Vos’ speech of Tuesday night has been very enlightening to me. That which he said seemed to answer many of my puzzlings. He spoke on, “The church in tribulation.” How blessed we really are that we are in the sphere of the covenant,
and can hear God’s Word, and are taught from early childhood and throughout all the years of our life. More and more we learn to know God as He is, and we know we have all in Him. Rev. Vos made clear that all the fightings and sufferings we have here on earth, are the echo of the sufferings of Christ. I no longer ask —why? Why serve God? Why walk a more holy life? For now I know better than ever that we suffer for His name’s sake. The church of Christ (we as members of that church) is pure and sinless. Therefore, whenever we come in contact with sin and darkness there is enmity. Whether that be of the devil, the world, or our own sinful flesh. For by nature we, the devil and the world, hate the Son and seek to destroy Him. But the law of God is in our hearts. We glory in tribulation for we know Jesus said, “Be of good cheer. I have overcome the world.’’ We have the victory in Christ Jesus our Lord. We are waiting for that day when we shall be one with Him in glory.
We can say as Rev. Kok wrote in Beacon Lights, “Rejoice, O young man, in the days of thy youth: and walk in the ways of thine heart and in the sight of thine eyes.” For we know true joy and happiness comes from within. The law of God is in our hearts by the new life within us.